Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Images of Jesus




Blond haired, blue eyed? Dreadlocked?

Stern-faced? Welcoming?

Revolutionary? Hippie?

Images are powerful. An image can elicit an array of emotions, depending greatly on who you are and where you're coming from. The same can be said for images of Jesus.

Why did a church receive death threats several years ago when they cast a black man as Jesus in a Passion Play? (http://lubbockonline.com/news/032197/black.htm)

Why are people surprised, yet often pleased when they first see 'Jesus Laughing'? (Above... a favorite I have up in my office). Why does it challenge their perceptions?

Why am I, a white, middle-class American male, bothered by images of anglo-Jesus? You know, the kind in your kid's Sunday School class.

There's no right or wrong answer (is there ever?). I believe our perceptions of Christ are largely shaped by our faith journey (no matter the tradition) and experiences.

For the white evangelical in America... Christ is most comfortably seen as white. For the oppressed of the inner city, an image of Jesus crucified next to the Sears Tower brings Christ home. Redeemer. Liberator.

We'll never have a definitive or 'true' image of Christ, and I think that's a good thing. Any image of Christ that brings hope to the weak and challenges the strong to reach out in charity is worthwhile.

Rant inspired by...

http://www.rejesus.co.uk/expressions/faces_jesus/index.html

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Striving for... something

In life I believe we are called to be in tune with the present moment. We are called to strive for our best in all endeavors, as imperfect as our ‘best’ may be. I do so when I strap on my guitar, when I put pen to paper, and when my feet hit the pavement for a run at Canal Park.

I’m admittedly a bit of a perfectionist. When I find something I care about, I pursue it almost to a fault (except guitar… that’s paid off). At times I think I’ll be remembered as a modern-day Icarus, someone who pushed the limits of his abilities, despite knowing the consequences, until plunging from the sky. I've taken my share of falls thus far.

I long for greatness, however broken and lacking my ‘best’ efforts may be. No one is perfect. If we were we’d have no need for God. Still, I believe we are all made in the image of God. We may be broken and fragile, but we all have our moments of greatness, perhaps even moments of perfection.

In the grand scheme of things we are not called to seek some infallible existence (note to self). If we do we’ll languish in a life of disappointment. Perhaps I’ve read too much Buddhist philosophy, but I believe more and more that being in-tune with the present moment is of primary importance to one’s happiness.

Greatness is to be measured not by our output, but our in-put: what we give of ourselves and how it changes who we are and, perhaps more importantly, how it changes the world around us.

We are called to be awe-full, to be filled with awe by the moments in which our feeble efforts and perfection go dancing. It is in these uncommon instances where we fully taste the splendor of life and see the face of God, the God who calls us to be in-tune with every moment, living life to the full for the uplift of this maddening world we live in.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Things keeping me from posting....

I haven’t posted anything in a while, so here’s a lame and generic list of things I’m enjoying right now…

Wilco – Kicking Television – Ok, I saw Wilco a couple times at 96 Wavefest back in the mid-90’s. I remember nothing about the performances. What I do know is that their recently released 2-disc live album is nothing short of incredible. Surprisingly the genius of their recent studio albums works in a live setting.

Free gym at Eastminster Presbyterian –As Ron Burgundy says, “The only way to bag a classy lady is to give her two tickets to the gun show.” Free gym = free muscles. 2 weeks and I'm already seeing results.

Sufjan Stevens – Say Yes! To Michigan – The first Sufjan album I ‘discovered’ online (aka illegally downloaded) about a year and half ago. If you like laid-back, acoustic-driven indie music without the pretentiousness (a rarity!) and with intelligence… Sufjan’s your man.

Peppermint Mocha from Starbucks – Trendy? Yes. Masculine? No. Do I care? Not really. These things are like drinking heaven out of a recycled cup. So good it almost makes me forget that I’m exploiting third world farmers every time I waste, err spend, $4 on one.

Bob Marley & the Wailers – Live at the Roxy – 23-minute Get Up, Stand Up / War / No More Trouble jam is worth the purchase itself. Definitely a good stocking stuffer for your dreadlocked loved ones.

Credo – William Sloan Coffin – Fascinating book of quotations from one of the world’s most renowned social activists and ministers. I haven’t gotten too far into this book (each quote takes some sinking in), but so far it’s been a very refreshing read. Great pick for the socially conscious Christian on your Christmas list.

Honorable Mentions:

NCAA March Madness ’06 for PS2
Tao Te Ching
Peace is Every Step – Thich Nhat Hanh
The Genesee Diary – Henri Nouwen
Sidney Rice TD's
John Coltrane – Live at the Village Vanguard (Master Takes)… if anyone wants to give me a Christmas gift you can pick up the boxset!
Steve Spurrier’s mystique

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Keys to a Win Saturday

Well, I wasn't going to post until after the Clemson game to avoid a jinx, but after some intense stat sheet studying here are some keys to a Gamecock win.

Defense
Make Whitehurst throw as many (or more) interceptions as TD’s. INT/TD ratio has always been make or break with this kid (all 35 years he's started at CU). If possible keep him below 60% on completions. 65% max.

If the INT's don't materialize, keep them under 150 yds rushing on the day.

Bonus fact: Ko needs 13 tackles to hit 100 for the season.

Offense
Mitchell needs more TD’s than INT’s. In the 2 games he started and USC lost, his INT/TD ratio was 1/2 (UGA) and 1/1 (Bama). In every win but Florida, he's thrown 2 TD's or more... We don’t even need 200 yds passing, but we must win the turnover battle to win. It's a fundamental truth in football and it weighs heavily in this game.

Freshman receivers (Rice and McKinley) need to produce. Arkansas is the only game in the 5-game win streak where Rice caught for less than 100. In that game McKinley picked up the slack. If Rice stays below the century mark McKinley must step up.

Keep up red zone production. We're 4th in the SEC for red zone scoring and first for TD percentage. Spurrier doesn't let up inside the 20 and he won't start on Saturday.



This one’s going to be closer than some USC fans think. I know a number of 'us' are so confident of a win our heads are nearing explosion level. Don’t expect redemption for 63-17, at least not for another year or two.

Perhaps I’ve learned a lesson from years past, but anything can happen in this one. Perhaps I still have “Lou-syndrome”. Our team isn’t that talented. Our team is young and they’re overachieving. Clemson’s better than their record indicates. Carolina isn’t as good as theirs.

Perhaps, however, this USC team has two key ingredients for success others have lacked: heart and character. The Gamecocks are taking it one game at a time and they’re playing to win. To paraphrase Spurrier, this isn’t a stats team, it’s a results team (so ignore my points above). Perhaps the opposite has been Clemson’s problem under Bowden. Maybe that’s why I’m confident that if and when it comes down to coaching, the Spur will always stand victorious.

This team's hungry for a win Saturday, especially the seniors. Bowl game? Check. Tennessee? Check. Florida? Check. Clemson? ___. This team, unlike previous USC teams under previous coaches, will not lie down and accept defeat if the going gets tough. As our fight song says, “that’s when the Cocks get going.” This year those words are finally ringing true. History says the first team to score in this one wins. Hell, history says the Gamecocks are bound to lose, but they call it “history” for a reason. Just ask fans in Gainesville and Knoxville.

Last week my predicted score was 3 points off. Let's hope I'm that close again.

Final – Cocks 24, Farmboys 20

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Tao Teh Christ?

The Western mindset engrains in us a habitual lifestyle of busyness and of competition. We fight for the best parking spot, we watch TV or surf the net to pass time, and we choose our vocation to make the most money, not to procure genuine happiness.

In his assessment of man’s love for God in The Art of Loving, Erich Fromm asserts that such a mentality comes from an Aristotelian or ‘Western’ logic that focuses on finding answers. In Western society man’s highest gain becomes the act of gaining itself.

This leads, in my analysis, to conflict as opposed to resolution, to anger as opposed to understanding, to conformity as opposed to individuality. Still, I embrace this mindset in many ways in my life. We all do. I’m always seeking to “know” God or to find absolutes in my own life-journey. Deep down I wonder if the absolutes we Westerners boldly affirm are shaped more by our experiences and our culture than they are by some graspable truth undergirding creation.

Diametrically opposed to this mindset is that of paradoxical or ‘Eastern’ logic which, in brief, would claim that the greatest knowledge one can know is that we cannot fully ‘know’. In the Christian’s quest for knowledge of God this would result in the conclusion that our limited minds cannot fully wrap around God’s reality.

The trouble I have, as I desire to bridge the logic gap in my life, is that paradoxical logic seemingly comes into contention with the belief we Christians have that we can “know” God through Christ. Or do we? Can we "know" God through Christ, or do we get snapshots of divinity (albeit perfect and true)?

I look at Christ’s teachings and in many ways see Eastern philosophy at work. Christ is one who calls us to look within ourselves through prayer and meditation so that we may act rightly toward others. He himself did this. Christ is one who calls us to shed our possessions and follow an ascetic path (read Merton’s No Man is An Island). If you seek to live out the essence of discipleship I think/hope you’ll find some agreement here.

Ultimately the call of God (in my life) isn’t to understand the inner-workings of the Trinity but to focus on living rightly. In other words, being (in the silent presence of God) leads us to doing (justice, kindness, love). Is that not Christ’s teaching in a nutshell? To ‘be’ in the moment so that we may get to work ‘doing’ God’s will?

Now that I’ve opened Pandora’s Box, I’ll leave it at that.

The only conclusion anyone can get out of this post is that I’ll probably never make it through the ordination process.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Going Bowling

I'm not sure what's happened over the past few weeks here in Columbia, but as Steve Spurrier mentioned yesterday, "the guys are playing like winners." At 6-3 with two games left, they are winners. I'll admit, following the Vandy game I was preparing myself mentally to see this team finish 4-7. Two games later, we're going bowling. We can win the next two, the only question lingering is, 'will we?' Some thoughts on the rest of the season...

0 wins - Independence
1 win - Peach
2 wins - Outback

Florida's in town next. I'll be in Black Mountain for work (4th year in a row for the UF game). Don't worry, I'll be watching with the Shandon folks while my advisors are delegated the task of ensuring the spiritual, physical, and emotional well-being of 15 middle school youth.

On to the game... After UF slipped past Vandy in overtime I think there's no question this is a game we can win. Talent-wise the Gators have a solid advantage, but when it comes to heart there are few teams, if any, flying higher than the 'Cocks this November. No doubt Spurrier will be preparing some interesting things this week. This is not a game he wants to lose. It should be close. It will be exciting. I, for one, can't wait!

No matter what happens, the following week will bring Spurrier's induction into the USC/Clemson rivalry. Walking outside Death Valley about an hour after 'the Brawl', I told a Clemson-fan buddy of mine that "if," and at that time it was still a case of "if," we landed Spurrier as our coach, "(they'd) better enjoy the winning while (they) can." I stand by that statement.

Now, I'm not saying we'll beat UF and/or Clemson this year. What I am saying is that the first strokes of a masterpiece are hitting the canvas in Columbia weeks before Turkey Day '05, much earlier than many would've predicted. With all the off-field turmoil, media bashing, and general taunting our program has suffered in the last 12 months it's little short (kind of like an Arkansas 4th down) of a football miracle that the Gamecocks are sitting at 6-3.

Other highlights: First win at UT, second since joining the SEC in 1992. First win at Arkansas since 1997. 3 losses; to the current #3 (Alabama), #9 (Georgia), and #17 (Auburn) rated teams in the Coaches Poll. Passing records are falling and falling fast. Impact players are YOUNG. The team is playing like a team every down, every week.

Lou Holtz talked long and often about needing a culture change. Well, with Steve Spurrier in the Cockpit, the lip service has ended and the culture is changing before our eyes. Teams, coaches, and fans of other programs feel it. The Iron Fans feel it. The Gamecocks and coaches know it. It may take a miracle to win both of the next two, but as Coach has said for two weeks now, "God is smiling on the Gamecocks." Let's hope the smile persists.

Final record: 7-4

See you in Atlanta!

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

The Place of Disconnect

11.2.05 3:19pm

I spill my desires
Through the cracks of an open mind
Onto soiled streets of need
Down into the basins of sanity
‘Fear not,’ I preach
Consumed by the search for God
I fade slowly
Overcome by the demands of the day
Slipping into contemplation
I meditate on the All in All
I meditate on Allah,
Freeing my soul from worldly repute
In the place of disconnect
Competition is no more
Veneration no longer a need
Charity transcends it all
In the place of disconnect
Christ resides
Vishnu comforts
God speaks beyond religion and creed
In meditation
‘To be’ is ‘to live’
In meditation
God reveals the path.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

More on 16-15...


"God is smiling on the Gamecocks" - Spurrier

Thought this was an interesting quote. Does God really have a hand in intercollegiate athletics? If so, the Gamecocks are clearly God's chosen ones. Joe Morrison was our Moses (do the research). Since being set free around '84 we've wandered through a desert of mediocrity with glimpses of manna from the sky (2 Outback Bowls). If last night was a glimpse of what's ahead, I sure can't wait to reach the Promised Land!

Work with me here, it's humor, not blasphemy!

16-15... 'Nuff Said




Just your average UT fans on a night with Spurrier in town....






Spurrier - 8
Fulmer - 3

"Steve Spurrier owns Phil Fulmer" - Mark May

"You know that commercial where they say, 'Sit, Ubu, sit?' That's Steve Spurrier talking to Phil Fulmer" - Lee Corso

Tennessee, you've been owned!

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Two Underrated Songwriters (and an album you should own by each of them)

Ben Harper (and the Innocent Criminals) – Fight For Your Mind

Few artists today carry a message as powerful as Ben Harper’s. You can’t go wrong with any Innocent Criminal album, but this one probably takes the cake as far as songwriting is concerned. From the stripped-down roots opener ‘Oppression' to the string-laden ‘Power of the Gospel’, this disc is focused, earthy, and most importantly, truthful. On Fight For Your Mind, Ben writes from the heart and touches the roots of human experience like few can do.

Bill Withers – Live at Carnegie Hall

I’ve been saying for years that Withers is the most underrated songwriter of the 20th century and this album hammers that opinion home.

Live at Carnegie Hall proves two things:

1) the man is a genius
2) his band was outstanding live

Anthems such as ‘Lean on Me’, ‘Ain’t No Sunshine’ and ‘Use Me’ mix well with lesser-knowns such as the soulful protest song ‘I Can’t Write Left-Handed’ and the funky urban masterpiece ‘World Keeps Going Around’. Bill’s music speaks candidly and poignantly about life, love, and justice. A must for not only soul/funk/r&b fans, but for any real music fan.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Life Lessons from an Amusement Park

Yesterday I had the privilege of an all-expense paid trip to Carowinds theme park in Charlotte, NC. My sole duty: to oversee the health, happiness, and well-being of 14 middle and high school youth.

In all the trip was not only a great bonding experience for myself and the youth, but a trip on which I learned several lessons.

First Lesson: You'll Never Know What You're Missing Out On If You Don't Take Chances

After riding a double-loop rollercoaster one 7th grader decided he'd skip the ensuing dangers of 'The Hurler' in favor of a Rugrats ride where you dump water on unsuspecting folks below. His companion: yours truly. While the ride was surprisingly fun (and wet), I was weary I'd be passing up thrill rides for Nickelodeon characters the rest of the day.

With some good-natured peer pressure he agreed to take on the Top Gun rollercoaster, "with 6 stomach-twisting inversions," after lunch (of all times) and loved it. I loved it. We all loved it.

After a number of 'level 4' thrill rides, he told me he never thought he'd be able to ride the rides he did that day and that if he hadn't he never would've known how much fun they could be.

A good lesson for us all.

Second Lesson: There's No Reason To Fear If You Have Faith (as well as some extra cash from your parents)

Following a life-changing 60mph, 153-foot bungee drop one 9th grader exclaimed, "That was awesome! The next time someone asks what I'm afraid of I'll tell them, 'nothing'."

The reason: he had fun. Why did he have fun? He had faith. In bungee ropes. In his harness. In God. Sure, he'd spent his dinner money on a 30-second bungee jump, but the lesson learned was well worth $12.

The next time I'm afraid... of rejection, of losing out, of failing, of falling, of being human... I need to remind myself to trust that there's something a little stronger, a little greater, than myself. Something that just might keep me from going 'splat' on the ground below.

Final Lesson: Ultimately our lives aren't determined by what we do or don't do but by how we learn from the ups and downs of each day we're lucky enough to face. Sure, we'll falter. Sometimes we may even hit the ground. But even if the strength we have is simply inside, there is something greater than ourselves that helps us up, brushes off our knees, and keeps us taking chances time and time again. It keeps us striving. It keeps us loving. I couldn't want it any other way.

Always Reforming in a Postmodern Ethos: The Paradox of Our Calling

“To criticize a church for being big is to imply disbelief in Christ's commission.... A church gets big because its spirit is big.... Nobody ever started a business without hoping that someday, if he or she worked hard enough, it would be a big success. That is the American dream, isn't it?” – Pamphlet from Roswell Street Baptist Church in Atlanta

http://hirr.hartsem.edu/bookshelf/thumma_article2.html

Reading this quote while researching ‘megachurches,’ my brain was thrown into a frenzy, questions and thoughts bouncing around my head like lightening in a jar. The thought that stands out to me the most centers on the culturalization of religion in America, which leads to a church diminished.

From my experiences, culturalized 'megachurches' feel as though they’re impoverished of two crucial spritual elements: tradition and the sacred. Hence why many worship services now resemble rock concerts.

Another type of loss can be seen in the diminishing of the traditional mainline church and a fluctuation of people to such culturalized churches. I am reminded of this at least once a week when I pass by Shandon Baptist’s massive “worship center,” currently under construction. I’m reminded when I think of the faces that left the congregation I grew up in for the upstart Seacoast Church (where “less tradition, more gimmicks” should be the motto).

As a Presbyterian, I’m a spokesman for being the church, “always reforming.” Still, there’s a paradox out there lurking like a wolf under Grandma’s bedclothes. If we give in to it we’re next week’s breakfast, if we ignore it we’re eaten alive on the spot. There is no one answer as to how we approach this paradox. We’re still learning. The great challenge for the mainline church today is in how we respond to the needs of people in a postmodern ethos without compromising our traditions and without compromising our faithfulness to God.

Briefly back to Shandon’s new sanctuary. Their website notes that the “building fund” slogan is “God’s Purpose, On Purpose. Building for Eternity”. This raises another question. How do we really know what God’s purpose for anything is? Some might say we could head down to Lifeway and pick up Rick Warren's Purpose Driven Life for the answers. Tradition, on the other hand, teaches us that the answer comes through discernment: prayer, scripture, and engaging the community.

Is God’s purpose for the church to resemble the “American dream?" I sincerely hope not. Is God’s purpose for us to buy the fanciest sound equipment, build the largest building, tout the highest attendance, and wield a seven figure budget? I have my doubts, but it’s not entirely out of the question.

As a young, idealistic Presbyterian, God’s purpose as I see it is for God’s people to engage a hurting world with love. Admittedly how we do so is up for interpretation. Is our love for God and others shown through these materialistic needs of the church and her people? Or are we so wrapped up in the capitalist ideal of ‘bigger is better’ that we risk sacrificing our integrity to self-serving idols?

I include my own church in the mix of idolaters: my denomination, all three congregations for which I’ve worked, and every church I’ve step foot in or come into contact with. I also include myself. Any self-professing “Christian” who doesn’t needs to take a long look in the mirror.

In the end I’m willing to question the ideals of the Presbyterian Church alongside any other church. I don’t fear wondering whether or not we’re conforming too much to society or if we’re trying too hard to bury our heads (usually in the name of guess what… tradition). In the end we both succeed and fail to answer God’s call. In the end we’re both wrong and right.

The question the church, any church, must ask is if it’s trying to please people (not to mention itself) or if the church honestly desires to heal the suffering, strengthen the weak, free the oppressed, and, consequently, change the world. Once we can begin coming to terms with that ideal we’ll find ourselves on the narrow path Christ implores us to live.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

God only knows...

At times I wonder what the hell’s wrong with the world. Evil? Yes. But what is evil? We all have our presuppositions. They all vary, and of course, like every other issue, we’re all “right” and those who disagree are “wrong”.

Truth be told, we’re broken people, fallen people, confused people, people seeking some answer to the questions filling our heads. We’re all on a journey. We all have a destination and only God knows where it all ends. We fear our brokenness. We fear vulnerability, so we hide our inner imperfections.

‘How are you?’ we say. ‘Fine’ or ‘good’, the reply. Why not say, ‘I’m having a shitty day. I worked longer than I wanted, my girlfriend and I had an argument, and I just want to sit down with a cold bourbon, some John Lee Hooker on the stereo and forget everything but the moment I’m living in.’

How hard is that? How hard is it for us to be honest, to be vulnerable? That, God knows, is just the tip of an iceberg that leads to loneliness, suicide, rejection, fear, racism, sexism, the death of Matthew Shepard, 9-11, Abu Ghraib, Darfur, DR Congo… the list goes on.

Is there a solution? Sure, but I haven’t quite figured it all out. I work in the business of solutions. I work in the business of explaining all the chaos we face. I work in the church.

Still, I question and debate. I doubt and I wonder where God is or isn’t at work in a confusing, broken, and hurting world. Is there a hand in everything or were our fore-fathers right? Did God make the world and take a hands-off approach? Short answer, in my truly unprofessional opinion, yes and no. God doesn’t create poverty. We do. God doesn’t punish “lost souls” with Katrina, or earthquakes, or war. If anything we punish ourselves by making God (or Satan) the scapegoat for both our evils and for the chaotic, natural events of our world.

What do I know? Maybe I’m right, maybe I’m wrong. Only truth I can take solace in is the truth that God knows. And for that reason, I needn’t fear honesty, vulnerability, and reconciliation. For in these things is love. And if there’s anything I do believe, it’s that God is love.



PS - thanks to Eric for the inspiration.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Ben Harper & The Innocent Criminals

Well, I saw perhaps the most awe-inspiring concert of my life last night despite the always terrible crowds at the House of Blues in Myrtle Beach. Ben Harper and the Innocent Criminals tore the roof off and are pouring everything they have into their performances on this tour. Great to see perhaps my two favorite songs, Jah Work and How Many Miles Must We March (the new reggae version) back-to-back.

I hadn't seen Ben & the IC's in over 4 years, which was before they added a keyboardist and second guitarist. The music sounds so full these days. It was also great to see Ben's old friend Tom Freund sit in on a few songs. Pleasure and Pain felt like they could be playing in Ben's family's record store 13 years ago (despite the idiots screaming). This band's a great example of what's good in the watered down music industry of today. I may have missed church yesterday morning to pick up the tickets in NC, but I was lucky enough to attend a musical revival last night!

Here's to hoping they tour the US again next year!

http://www.benharper.net/?page=concert&sub_page=setlist&id=2197

Sunday, July 24, 2005

First Post

It looks like I've taken the plunge and created a blog. We'll see how this goes....

I just got back from two great weeks at Montreat. I had the opportunity to assist in recreation leadership for 1,000+ high school kids per week with the added bonus of playing lead guitar with the music leader. The kids were awesome and really made us feel like rock stars with their enthusiasm.

All in all it was a phenomenal two weeks spent with a great bunch of people in a beautiful place. I'm too tired do the experience justice so I'll leave it at that for now.